Currently life update

So I have a break from school for the week which not being distracted by school has made me constantly think that I'm lonely even if I'm constantly surrounded by people especially since it's been 2 months since I started middle school, I don't talk to anyone (unless it's an old classmate of mine who I meet) I don't have any friends, I have a small friend group and they have other friends too, which brings me to when they hang out with the other friends and not the friend group I'm in, like I understand you have other friends nobody is stopping you just makes me sad that I don't have anyone else to hang out with, but also makes me feel like a bitch that I think like this my friends don't need to pay attention to me, sometimes I want to hang out with people sometimes I just want some space for myself. Being alone sometimes suck I sit alone in my own bed have insane screen time doing nothing like I want to find something to do but I usually don't have the energy for it, one thing I want to kinda focus on music I've been thinking about getting into metalcore (one of my friends is obsessed with BMTH) so suggestions will be appreciated. The other think I want to wear more accessories I have quite a lot of chains I'd like to put them on my jacket or bag but it feels like I'm trying too hard I feel like a poser. I just want to do something that doesn't make me feel like ass, also find some friends online but I'm kinda afraid to talk to people because I feel like I'd just annoy them and seem weird. Ig that's enough for my rant. I'm hanging out with my friends tomorrow checking out thrift stores to see if there's anything interesting. Thanks for your minutes of attention I appreciate it very much. (I should stop ranting about my problems online to strangers)