DDRD(Diary of a Divalistic Realistic Diva)

Genuinely though am I only one who misses having a crush on my ex-crush????? Like I want to hate him BUTTT I feel like having feelings for him but I just also still don't want to love him... But anyways storytime on how my ex-crush (let's call him Aymen) found out I liked him:

So like I used to not even like this guy it was literally my friend who kept telling me that we both looked soooo good together. And I didn't even find him attractive at first but since she kept saying that we looked really good together I ended up falling for him but only for his face because I still didn't know him that much and I only knew his name . So when I fell for him it only lasted like 1 month and like I have a friend ( who we're going to call A)who saw him at the park  and they started talking and like she was talking to her sister and like she was saying " Oh yeah you know I have a friend who likes Aymen-" Aymen heard her.And so he was like " Who is she? Tell me! What's her name?" And she never told him my name(THANK GOSH ). And there was this one specific day(a random Thursday) where Aymen asked A :" If I buy you a drink, will you give me her snapchat account?" And of course since she's a good friend, she asked me first OBVI. I said yes but I made a fake account so he couldn't see my profile. And so we talked and stuff and like he found out my name and stuff but like I was too shy to like talk about myself and showing my face to him like he kept saying "Can I see your face? To see what you look like?" and I was like "But I already know you don't like me." And then he was like "But I promise I'll be honest plus I'm looking for one( a gf)." And I still ended up refusing so A made a group where there was me,Aymen and  herself. So we ended talking like he said what class he was in and then I said mine, AND THEN HE SAID LIKE "Ok then I'll ask Selim(an annoying guy in my class who was Aymen's friend.) for a pic of you." I WAS FREAKING OUT BC WE LITERALLY HATE EACHOTHER!!!!!And so after a few minutes he FINALLY said "Selim said you're ugly and he ain't lying..." And so A was trying to defend me but I was like girl no it's fine... I blocked him(Obviously).  And like 2 days later his friend (who was my friend's ex-crush) came to me and asked my name and like I didn't reply and stuff cus I was already talking and then he left. After that day, nothing else happened. But anyways thank you for staying 'till the END byeee my Divas!

Love,Ayah.