The growing bitterness and envy from seeing my friends living better lives than me was NOT HELPING. I deleted insta but I still have tiktok on my ipad so I'm still on there but its a new account with no one I know following me. I've had 2 people text me about it but I haven't talked to anyone in days. I'm so used to isolating myself that it prob won't bother me if ppl don't reach out.
So whats been going on since? I made 50 cake pops for my uncle's baby shower and he payed me for them. I now have money to pay for a therapy appointment and try to get some real help. No jobs have hired me yet but i'm still trying. I still don't eat much or sleep very well but I'm very slowly improving and I hope whatever my therapists suggests helps me. I want to ask about mental health homes I can stay at for a bit (I haven't self harmed but the thoughts are still there)
I'm just trying to take it slow for now.
I started writing and drawing more so ik I'm improving.
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Cysper04
That's great, and if you think that's the right decision and actually works for you.... Then that's fine.
I'm happy you're somehow improving and I hope things would go well for you and I hope someday you'd be improving more.
I hope things would be great for you this year and for the years to come both health and financially and also career wise when you eventually got a job. :)
Hanko ☆
I'm glad you deactivate them
And one step at a time to!
Nulia
That’s amazing lad