deer diaries 2: friendships fuel the soul ‎♡‧₊˚

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dear fairies, unicorns, and angels who draw near,

i am lucky enough to consider many people as friends. but i am truly devoted to two. mainly one. for halloween i went to a party with my friends. it was originally going to be a party but it was really a hangout. it was a really chill and calm because we played board games the entire time. afterwards, it got me thinking that anyone else in my shoes wouldve thought it was boring yet i had such a good time. its so important to have people u can consider ur closest friends that u can do anything and nothing with them. to be able to talk abt anything and feel safe. to be surrounded by good energy and care. my best friend says shes not a girls girl but i think she is. people dont really like her bc shes honest and theyre not used to that. some people have lost the plot of what it means to be a girls girl. u shouldnt side w women just bc shes a woman. just like u shouldnt not side w a man just bc hes a man. u side and support someone bc u share similar opinions and beliefs.

ive accepted my fate and future that i'll live alone w cats in a beautiful cottage but will go mad if my best friends arent in my life. plantonic love holds a special place in my heart. yes ofc i want a bf but my previous experiences made me lock the door and throw away the key. i have a very complicated relationship w love but thats another entry. what im trying to say is if im destined to never have a husband i'll be okay as long as i have my friends bc they have helped me in so many ways and have given the greatest advice. i hope im able to repay for their endless kindness.

ive only had very few bad apples but it never made me lose hope in friendships. good thing it was really easy to cut them off and not feel remorse. heres a mini list of what not a good friend is:

• u feel like u have to walk on eggshells when sharing ur opinion
• they support trump
• they're genuinely rude
• they switch ur words and tell ppl something completely false under ur name
• they try to push a different religion onto u
• theyre friends w someone who sexually assaulted a girl
• they dont want to cut off a friend that voted for trump bc theyve known the friend for a long time
• they dismiss the clear signs of u struggling mentally and judge u for it
• they like instagram reels that have transphobia connotations 

 i know not everyone is perfect but theres a difference in someone making mistakes and being a terrible person. others arent fortunate to have best friends or anyone to consider as a safe zone bc i think its hard to make friends as u get older. we all start friendships from sharing the same environment either pre-selected or we found ourselves in such as school, work, moving to a different location, knowing the same person, being seated next to someone, etc. then we get into a different era in our life and we outgrow the friendship. i think a lot of ppl are only meant to be momentary friends and thats okay! its good to have ordinary connections that wont turn into something bigger. humans need human connection so its good to be friendly to others and see where it goes. they dont always have to be added to ur bff list.

thank u so much for being here and taking the time to read all of this. may ur biggest desires and wishes come true and remember, u are not alone. the wind has always and will forever embrace u.

if u need me, i'll be frolicking in the fields picking out four leaf clovers. i'll be back soon ♡

with all of my love,

kat