.don't. Wanna do this anymore.

just tired. wanna cut. I won't, I think. my boyfriend really doesn't want me to and he's been helping me.

but I wanna see him in person so bad. he's so far. I just need to see him for a couple hours. maybe. weeks. I just wanna see him so bad, I feel so lonely, I'm always third wheeling my friends now and when I bring up my bf my bsf acts all disgusted and i just. idk. I told her abt it. she said she'd try to work on it. but.

idk. I just wanna. Die sometimes.

not really die. I just wish I could sleep for days to get a reset. but I can't do that.

I don't really know. just don't feel good. on a second alt just to make sure nobody on my main acc sees this and knows who It is.,haha.

okay.bye.