Downward spiral ⋮ ⌗ ┆

I've started to notice small things about myself that are very bothersome in my opinion. I overthink and overanalyze every single aspect and action of my life. I'm constantly anxious and constantly just very insecure to the point where I stopped being me and started being someone else. I have no clue as to why that is and what is going on with me; sometimes I can pull myself out of it and just be better, but it seems like false hope at this point. I've grown self-conscious about everything I do, thinking, "Am I being corny?" "Do I talk weird?" "Why can't I be normal?" is harmful rhetoric that I know is bad for me, but I continue it as a means of punishment. Why? Why should I punish myself for absolutely no reason? And to answer that, I have no clue. I truly don't. I don't know what I'm doing anymore, and that's scary; I don't want to feel like a corpse just walking around; I want to be alive again.

xoxo 

D3ad

5:06 a.m. Thursday, 7th, 2026