Drawing Clowns Helps Me When I'm Feeling Existential

Like Not Even Drawing ,Just Thinking About Them Brings Me Comfort For Whatever Reason .I Don't Know Where My Deep Fascination For Clowns Came From But Whenever I Think Of Them Whether It Be Like .A Jester Or Pierrot It Feels All Fuzzy To Me .

I Think It's Because Of My Perception Of Them ,In My Head Obviously They're Still Your Stereotypical Clown But More Nuanced As In They Already Figured Out The Way Of The World How It Will End And When It Began Yet They Choose To Entertain To Bring Joy To Those Around Them And I Think That's Beautiful 

If I Had All The Knowledge In The World That Has Existed And Will Existed I Wouldn't Know If I Could Carry The Burden But Clowns Do Yet They Still Laugh With You And Preform 

Why Focus So Much Of Your Life Thinking About What The Meaning Of Everything Is When You Will Inevitably Fade Away, Forgotten For Years To Come? To Me Clowns Are Special Because They Help Me Focus On The Things That Matter To Me In The Moment, If I Will Live Only But One Life I Want To Experience Every Bit Of Happiness Whether It Be Drawing, Sewing, Being With Loved Ones.. Even If It Is All Useless In The End I Want To Feel Every Bit Of Love And Happiness In This World 

Sure Maybe Laughter Is Temporary And We Still Have To Face The World And What Its Becoming And What Will Happen After You Pass On But Genuine Joy Will Always Be There A Permanent Fixture In Your Life Even If It Takes A While For It To Finally Come Back To You.. What Is The Point Of Life If You Dwell On The Inevitable 

So Uhhmmmhgh Yeah I Really LikeClowns This Is.Jist My Personal Tak On Them They Mean A Lot To Ns🌸🧼🌸🌸🧼🌸🧼🌸🧼Yay 😊 😊 UghhmmmI Hope I Maje Sense With This It's Late As Hel I Just Started Riting