Dreams

I keep having dreams where I'm portrayed as a horrible person and chastised for my actions towards others for hurting them deeply by someone I've hurt who used to love and care for me. It's probably my subconscious telling me I'm a horrible person for what I've done but to a certain extent it gets to me and whenever I wake up I start crying because these constant reminders of how much of a failed human I am even in the only sanctuary I have being my sleep I'm still reminded of my faults. It's a horrible thing. It's not fair in the end. I still have to deal with my day to day battles while you get to live happily with someone else in your life. Having left your worries and predicaments behind. A new life with love and joy yet I live a life of envy and regrets without a smidge of happiness. 

I'm going back to sleep.