eate 12: "ego and the entries untitled"

7/10 midday. song of the blog is god cum poltergeist by crisis sigil / rook // 

what is up with family members and being assholes???????????? just because we share blood does not mean I won't hesitate to beat the shit out of you!!!!! I would go as far as to even KILL you DO YOU THINK I CARE!!!!!! all they exist for is to be an INCONVENIENCE to EVERY DECISION YOU MAKE. i cant do SHIT in this house without WEIRD LOOKS and ULTERIOR LIGHT in EVERYONES EYES AND TONES. dont even SPEAK to me dont LOOK at me i am FED UP with ALL of you. I cant wait to get a JOB and MOVE OUT and cut EVEYRONE out of my life I would be doing so much better if these fuckasses weren't around me 24/7!!!!!!!!

I make the suggestion the mere SUGGESTION that I get bangs and the response is a "No" and she starts giving me shitty reasons about why I shouldn't and that I "better not"???? WHO even CARES if I get bangs or noT???????????? like am I somehow the crazy one for believing I should do whatever I want with MYYY appearance???? I am so tired of these people dictating what I should and shouldn't do theyre always breathing down my fucking back like OH my god me getting bangs is the least of your worries I could do SO much worse and you've SEEN me do worse than just getting BANGS are you fucking stupid????

I feel like I am going crazy like yeah okay whatever dude theyre just bangs you shouldn't be so upset but it's the fact that everything just keeps PILING UP ON EACHOTHER. like besides the bangs there's a bunch of other shit that they always just reject the idea of me doing I feel TRAPPED and they always wonder why I never want to talk to them because WHY would I want to talk to anyone who acts like you guys????? like genuinely you must be stupid if this has to be even brought up as a question in any situation/????!!!!! I dont know im irritated I genuinely might just cut my hair anyways because no one else should determine my appearance except myself so Fuck her okay anyway thank s friendrewind end of ego entry 12 or whatever I dont even know if its the 12th one who cares bye