I guess over the past week, my anxiety has been growing and growing with the ever so increasing rhetoric of anti-POC, especially brown people. I live in very religiously conservative household but I am closeted an agnostic. But no matter what as someone who has heritage in India and Pakistan and born in the US; i feel more unsafe then ever before seeing the news of more attacks against people of color. The sad part is that even if I leave my to my supposed homeland for all rac15t5 to be cheering for it to happen;
Im still cooked either way since it’s hard to make a living ; I can’t even settle anywhere to be peaceful, help even the bad apples running around from my culture starting some trouble. I’ll still get looked at like I deserve the burnt force of this rhetoric. Hell, even my own culture can make me feel safe either with their constant judgements towards me
I’m scared these days to go outside my house that somewhat somehow I’m paranoid that I might get attacked or even though yk parents are religious af, they’re also targets of hate and if war they’re safety as well; idk man it just feels like every where even from your own people, my existence shouldn’t be a thing beacsue of the way I look or what my faith is
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Asterisk
Hey man, I’m really sorry you’re going through this. You don’t deserve to be treated like a problem just for existing.. There's not much I can do on my end being a stranger online, but something that can help short-term is getting out briefly to a safer public place with people around (like a library) where you can just be around others and talk to someone, even if you don’t feel like doing much. Staying inside can make the fear grow. I’m not in a position to tell you what you should do with your immigration or life plans, but it may be more helpful to focus on what’s safest and most workable for you in the near term (where you can get support and stability). I hope you're okay and that you stay safe!
That’s really kind of you; honestly it’s hard to go out and try to find a safe place since finding new people is hard these days since it seems they’re already established they’re friend groups
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I feel really bad for you dude, things seem like hell on earth there in USA I hope that one day you can find peace and get out of this terrible situation
that’s is my goal but it seems like its literally financially impossible to escape this country and again like I said; I’ll still face discrimination and dehumanization moving back to roots or settling in either Europe, Americas, Africa, Asia, Oceania, and Middle East
by vampenigma; ; Report
I know it looks terrible, I'm sorry to hear that again, but all I can do in my power is tell you to stay strong and take good care of yourself, good luck bro
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Ty </3 :(
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