I feel so depressed I don't even feel sad anymore. Nothing is even really all that wrong in my life anyway which makes me feel like I shouldn't or can't feel sad. IDK if that makes sense but it really sucks because I just want to actually be happy for once. I wish I could go back to my friend's house because he always makes me happier, I love him so much :) Anyway, I hate how I feel so scared to vent to my friends. Normally I either bottle up my feelings (yes I know it's bad I can't help it) or I vent to myself. I just wanted to be heard by someone this time. And on top of all of the bs already going on in my life rn, my boyfriend feels like he's being a bad partner, he really isn't and I feel horrible for even letting him think that. Also I'm really scared for next year because the two of us are going to two different schools and what if he leaves me for someone else? I can't deal with another heartbreak right now dude. I have to do another placement audition for my school and I'm scared I'm gonna absolutely flunk it because I haven't had time to practice all summer. Life is good but I'm making it bad for myself ATM. sigh, I'm sorry if none of this makes sense. :(
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miro
I don't know who you are, but I’ve read what you wrote; you are very worried about life and the future—I used to be just like that, too. I’ll tell you just one thing: in a life where we don’t know when the end will come, there is nothing more absurd than worrying. Let life take its course and share your troubles with the people around you; things will either work out or they won’t. When I look back at the things I used to fret over, I wish I had simply enjoyed my youth and those moments instead of worrying. And never be afraid of losing.
Holy wow, truly thank you for telling me this i kinda really needed it lol thank you from the bottom of my heart <3
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punkxhazzard
I get it vro, best advice I can give you is to not manifest it worst or feel sorry for yourself, focus on what you have and do your best to hold on to it
Okay thank you for the advice C:
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