denial

whoops almost put this in the wrong category

i feel like denial is driving me insane. i keep going back and forth. "ooh are we plural or are we lying?" i KNOW that obviously i can't just fake a real thing like this subconsciously, but STILL. what if it's fake? what if i lied to myself because i was, like, lonely or something? what if it's all just a "craaazy imagination"? and what if i've just lied to all of my friends by opening up about this???

i know i know. i can't fake something like this, not with how odd my experiences are. i can't just FAKE having amnesia to even myself. i can't fake the personality shift that even i the system feels. buuut what if i am?

like obviously this whole. phenomenon. i experience it as truly as i think it is. but i've lied to myself before, what if i'm lying agian? what if what if what if. who even cares lol

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Gaiety_and_Insanity

1 week ago (edited) Report

If it helps at all, you could ask one of your alters to just bonk you on the head whenever you start to doubt your experiences, and remind you that they're real

huh ! maybe maybe. i got juno to paint our nails like an hour after i posted this so i suppose i did end up getting .. metaphorically bonked

thanks for the idea ! -sunny

by InkSqxid; 1 week ago (edited); Report

InkSqxid

1 week ago (edited) Report

forgor to sign this??? twas by sunny and so is this comment

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