Feelings suck

Feelings are super icky, aren't they? 

I'm a rising HS senior, I know I'm unc. Back when I was a freshman, I had a kind of sort of crush on this one girl. She was two years older than me. I thought of it as a crush that would end up nowhere. 

Time skip two years later, we are talking and are pretty solid friends. Now we are going to a concert together in two months. The problem is that the feelings came back. I don't know how to feel. She's aroace. Because I actually appreciate her and her friendship, I'll do nothing about my feelings. It hurts, but I don't want to do anything to hurt her or myself.

Life sucks, doesn't it?