the ability to hate is a luxury

i'm practically incapable of hating anyone and i have difficulty standing up for myself and it puts me in a lot of difficult situations. people frequently walk all over me & treat me badly and it doesn't matter bc i always end up letting it go bc i'm too nice of a person. i wish i had some sort of spine in me to act but i loathe the idea of being on bad terms with anybody. it's like i just wanna be everybody's friend and i always let people hurt me because i don't want to upset them. this applies to other points in my life too where i put other people's needs above my own. social life is hard bro. :/ atleast there are some people in my life who love that aspect of me and treat me nicely, but idt anybody's ever treated me the way i treat them. it's always like i have to apologize to people if i want to be their friend i have to chase i have to be the one to try. idk bro i hate it i don't think there's any tips anyone could give me but if anybody relates let me know