avoidant

a major flaw of mine emerges whenever i fantasize about having an intimate relationship where we both understand one another. however, as soon as i think about it logically i realize that they won't be able to completely understand me because i don't think i'll ever be able to fully convey myself to anyone no matter what. i'll always suppress myself around basically anyone because i'm holding on to a fragment of myself that feels esoteric to me. the only way i'm able to

thoroughly express every

aspect of myself is if i'm in solitude.