moving out soon

genuinely never thought i'd get to this point in my life. or like, as far as i can remember. to be honest i can't recall a whole lot of my childhood but im pretty sure everything past 18 has just been improv, as far as i know. 

cant say the process hasn't been stressful, but i'd also be lying if i said i didnt want the date to come sooner. or like, maybe timeskip once the leasing office has actually sent the lease for me and my roommate and our cosigner to review. i actually have to call about that in the morning since they're taking forever to send it and its making me nervous, hah. but! as long as that goes well, right after that, i want to jump right to the day im out of here.

instead of a house with people who i have to put on masks around and take any behavior they throw my way, im going to live with my best friend who actually respects me. who actually cares about my opinion and my privacy and letting me be my own person without forcing me into whatever box they want from me at any given point. maybe ill be able to actually work on better understanding this whole system thing because dear god, when you're in the situation that caused it for you in the first place hell is it difficult to work on ANYTHING. plurality is really good at defending you when its built for that, but that also means its hard to like. get through that. 

not to dwell too much on the negatives, though. im just excited! if anyones got a spare time machine to august 15th i could use it haha