My friends this will be a short blog to get heavy stuff off my chest but I do hope you guys don’t experience this. It’s horrible.
For context I for a few months now started feeling horribly lonely. The whole feeling of “nobody will ever love me”.
This came about when my ex-boyfriend and I broke up. I am on the acespec and also deeply religious so I made it clear to him that I didn’t want any intimacy of THAT kind before getting married. He did everything in his power to attempt to change my mind (which did not work), and then when he realised he’d get nowhere, he resorted to accusing me of extremism, being a cult-follower, so on and so forth.
This instilled in me a new “flaw”: the fact that I can’t give men what they “really want”.
So now I’m stuck in a spiral in which I think no man will want me because of that. Which I know is stupid… But I have tried to reason with my own mind and it just doesn’t work.
Anyway, I’ll try my best to work through it. You guys have a good day though…!
And if anyone here can relate to how I feel, remember you’re not alone in being alone. Some people are like islands along a vast ocean; nothing to connect them. How does an island know there are millions more in the sea if it cannot see them?
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dolliene
Men will make genuinely any excuse to avoid accountability, I'm so sorry for your experience. The modern dating scene, especially for Catholics, is so grim but keep focusing on God and everything will go according to His divine plan. A relationship that priorities God first will always be healthier than a co-dependent nightmare or a massive power imbalance.
truth nuke!!! seriously though, thank you. you’re very much right and i’ve learned my lesson :’] God bless you
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neomatcha
most men are genuine evil and i'm proud of u for not giving him intimacy when you didn't want it. don't ever feel pressured to do anything with a guy for the sake of giving them "what they want". it's not worth it and a man like that will only ever lead to heartbreak in the end. also they're gross ew.
there are good guys out there, for example my bf waited 4 months for even a kiss and my friend's bf has been w her for 2 years but unable to hang out alone even once (religious strict parents). another aroace person i know is in a qpr w all the benefits of a relationship but none of the physical stuff with a non-acespec guy. they exist!!!
good luck!!
this is so reassuring to hear and i thank you for your comment! :’) i’m so glad to know your bf is respectful. it’s true, some men are genuinely evil, and i’ll try my best to finally find a good one, although they are rare.
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