This blog is not a cry for help, but more like an annoyed sigh meant to merge with the air and ultimately become, nothing.
A venting post, an immature complaint..
I'm just tired. Nothing ever happens in my romantic life. On top of that i'm a lesbian, a closeted one at that so i'm 99% sure that i will have to resort to dating sites once i turn 20.
I just turned 17, 3 days ago and realized that the end of my teenagehood is but a year away. And i know i'm being dramatic, i know it's not the end of the world to never experience teenage love but god damn it did i want to.
I just want to feel loved in that way, i want to be sure that someone genuinely loves me for who i am, that someone appreciates me, i want to be thought of regularly, i want to be admired and i want to reciprocate that. On top of this i want to whisper sweet nothings, hold hands and take her to my favorite spots around the city to cuddle as we watch the sunset together.
I'm tired of being the only person that does so, i'm tired of being scared and i'm tired of feeling disgusted.
Every time i fall for a girl i feel like a disgusting pervert with bad intentions when in reality what i'm feeling is normal.
And i'm tired of being scared of the future, because what will happen once i bring a woman in front of my christian Congolese parents?..
Whatever, that's all i have to type. Bye.
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❦︎ȶɛʍքʊʀǟ ʟɨʍǟ❦︎
rushed love is always bad, I never used dating sites and to be honest I think most people there sucks, to find love I think the best thing to do is always be moving somewhere and be doing something if you know what I mean, dedicate yourself to things you like and one day maybe you'll share them with someone, just don't be scared ever, besides trust me if you are where you really wanna be you are not gonna be scared, think about yourself for now and do stuff everyday you literally have to be yolo, also you are still so young don't be paranoid, good luck.