My Soul is Trapped in Makeup˚.🎀༘⋆
By Frederick
Ever since I finally began wearing makeup and becoming a full fledged gyaru, I’ve had this small worry at the back of my mind that I’d become dependent on said makeup to feel presentable and well pretty. Except the more I look into it the more I realise the basis around said worry is wrong.
I wouldn't become dependent because I’d feel ugly, I’d become dependant because I wouldn’t feel like myself.
It is only makeup and fashion where I can express my soul’s contents in my life. Even then I face obstacles in the form of judgement and rejection. Now that I finally have an outlet to tell the world who Frederick is, I don’t want to let go. It’s most likely why whenever I’m just at home with no makeup and quite frankly ugly clothing, I feel a very very subtle unease. It has been so constant and present I forgot it was there, but the introduction to makeup in my life has made it so that it rears its ugly face. Quite annoying.
I’m not sure what the antidote to something like this is, though it's not as if my life is unbearable with it present, merely bothersome.
Eventually I’ll acquire that life. Until then I’ll be here I suppose.
Best Regards,
Frederick :/
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AgejoAngel
I get what you mean </3 I think it's really important to remember that your makeup looks revolve around YOU. Without you, it would be a completely different look. Outside of your physical face, there's your creative input and knowing what looks and feels right for you. Without the makeup, you are still just as glamorous, because you're still you! I hope you're able to figure out how to manage it in a way that works for you!
oh my god you're so sweet〒▽〒
thank you I'll keep that in mind(≧∇≦)ﾉ
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