Am I asking for to much?

Ok so I’m new to being bi and it’s hard because for one I’m scared of telling people I know and for two most people in my area are extremely straight 😭. But even before that i always felt like an outcast always the person standing outside looking in. I have people I talk to but it always seems like they don’t want me around. I never get invited to anything and no one ever texts me. Is it too much to ask for someone who wants me to be a part of their life? Or to want to be close to me?feel like I’m alone and honestly it sucks cause I want to have friends and a relationship but no one ever seems to stick around…