The more weight I drop, the more I realize that I think I look the same. In fact, I think I look bigger than before. No matter how much people are like “you look skinnier! I can actually see the difference,” I feel bigger than I am. I went from a 14-16 to a 12 and even through I’ve went down two sizes, I feel fucking humongous. I’ve been so fucking hungry, too. So whenever I eat, I just start to feel sicker with myself and I don’t wanna eat like at all. I think that even whenever I get down to 120, I’m still gonna think I’m big. I’m scared I’m gonna give myself another eating disorder and gain again. I don’t wanna gain again I’m so sick of being fat I’m so fucking sick of it and every time I look in the mirror, I’m bigger.
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Kellaco
:(( i know my two cents probably isnt what ur looking for but the period of time i was counting calories or even just calorie watching was hell for me, i was so depressed and angry and tired all the time, and at the end of it all, my body had GAINED weight. since then ive completely eschewed worrying about the restrictive part of weight management, focused more on "adding good things" to my diet rather than removing from it, and also tried to make my self happier. Nowadays im somehow losing weight despite the fact that i havent significantly changed my diet, drugs, or routine, and i can only attribute it to being happier overall, doing hobbies i enjoy + hanging out with people i like + trying new things. dont ask me how it works biochemically, these are just my own observations of myself.
all to say (and sorry for being longwinded), if what youre worrying about is how you look you will Never feel skinny. im sorry. yes, it sucks, and it makes it feel sometimes like the world is your enemy, but its better to focus on what you can do rather than how you are. i know thats easy to say, but i promise i promise there really are people that think youre pretty, handsome, talented, and worthwhile no matter WHAT your weight is or ends up being. i hope you get a tasty treat sometime and do something fun. <3 <3 <3
You were probably underneath a healthy deficit. I’m doing a healthy deficit, but I’m just scared. I’m so fucking sick of being chubby. I got broken up with because of it. Even if I don’t feel skinny, I’ll stop when I hit 118. Just 80 more pounds and I’ll get there^^!
by Swagalicious undead; ; Report
Sai Mene
son you need a proper diet if ur disgusted by eating lmfao
whats ur maintenance cals
I’m eating way better than I used to! I just don’t want to gain
by Swagalicious undead; ; Report
ok cool yea awesome
r u also working out? cardio at least? i’ve found that makes dieting so much easier for me because it raises my maintenance.
How bad did you used to eat lol
by Sai Mene; ; Report
Yeah I’m doing just dance. I’m really poor so we weren’t able to afford actual produce or vegetables for a really long time. It was a lot cheaper to just eat frozen food.
by Swagalicious undead; ; Report
I eat frozen food too and like no veggies lol its about meeting macros
tbh tho we do get potatoes and they carry my entire diet
try potatomaxxing its fire
by Sai Mene; ; Report