How life is feelin rn

I'm about to graduate high school next year. I'm not ready. I spent my entire life shut in from people. Every time i made a connection online, I blocked them to avoid commitment, and I hate myself for it. I've never had a gf (I go to an all-boys school, but we partner with an all-girl school so we have dances and shit), and my friends say I just don't try hard enough. Girls won't even make eye contact with me. They stare, and when I look at them, they look away as if I'm a bum. It's wtv. My grades are slipping. I have started to get Bs. I don't know what college I'm going to attend. My career of choice is just because it pays well. I have no passions in life. Fuck this shit, bro.