There was a day when I apologized to everyone I’d hurt; I was having a breakdown. I politely asked my father to apologize for things he had done—like times when I’d sworn and been unnecessarily rude—but he blamed everything on me; even my brother, who doesn't even live with us anymore, took his side. I MEAN, HE DOESN'T EVEN LIVE WITH ME AND MY PARENTS. I feel like it’s all my fault; I really feel like a bad son. Sometimes I think about committing suicide just to lift this burden. When I told my mom at 13 that I’d tried to kill myself by overdosing, she got angry with me; she made me feel even worse. I have thoughts about killing my parents, but I don’t want to be a criminal. I just wanted peace... The only peace I find is being with my friends, being at school, or self-harming. I’m so hurt that I didn't even fix the Google Translate phrasing... (I’m Brazilian and not very fluent in English.)
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cry abt it bitc-
That sounds tuff
in a bad way, not like some cool way, but like, in a bad way, you know?
I'd feel awkward to ignore this so here's a quote to live by👍: You can't see the future, not the terrors for sure, but you also can't see the wonders that are coming, the moments of life that awaits each of us. You know how long humans live for? 120 something years. That's a lot of years. There's a lot of things you can do in 120 years. If you let these hardships, these horrible times, delete ur future potential, wouldn't that be a waste? Wouldn't it be nice to see how strong you've become, surpassing these horrible times that break you down so deeply? You could be walking around like Sasuke quoting, "I can tell I've already become so much stronger😈😈" with like a really deep voice or something. That's what I do. I'm a bit cringe. actually I think im a lot of cringe. kk imma shut up now. plz dont kill urself cuz thats bad. stop cutting ur arms or whatever ur doing. did you know you could lose them that way? im typing too much. bye