Responsibilities

Responsibilities by ANTIBI0TICZ(Lani)

I wrote this a couple of minutes ago, so enjoy ig.

What are my responsibilities as a human being? Most responsibilities are based on what others think is right or correct in a way. I know I have responsibilities; they aren't unknown to me. Just out of sight, or maybe they are hiding. Because they don't want to actually mean anything to anybody. Maybe they like to be in incognito mode and like the chase. Or they are staring right in my face, laughing at my efforts to find them or amount to them. To be honest, I have never actually realized my worth in some aspects. Of course, people would see me as the most important person in their lives, or they would see me as a nuisance. In some views, I do see myself like that, but in a sugar-coated, galore kind of way. Most people's thoughts about themselves are sugar-coated, mainly to save their ego. Of course, one day they have to accept that they aren't the best thing in the world, but some can never realize that. It kind of hurts to realize that at first, but you have to realize the truth first to hit the core. Or sit blind with no way of getting to where you need to go, without the assistance of course. Another thing that sucks when you are a human being is so shitty that you sometimes feel so disgusted with your body or your mind. It's like my body is a kind of disgusting organism that is prone to getting so many sicknesses from doing such simple things that it's sickening by itself. Then the mind is even worse, it's so many issues by itself, it's so frustrating, if I'm taking a pop quiz, you should be helping me, not playing 'The My Little Pony' theme song. Like, just strangle me already, oh wait, I can't because I'm too scared to even actually commit to anything. And no, I'm not joking, I'm being sarcastic, but seriously, I'm too scared to actually want to commit. Which sucks in a way, it's basically a way of calling myself weak or like a bitch-boy/girl in a way.