I really don't want to be 2O. Let me be 19 forever. September has been really hard to live because I don't. I always thought my English was good, until I realized it was not (sorry if I make sentences that have no sense). I feel like a "zgeg" (famous french expression that means that you sucks).
Since I've been back to college, I feel so stupid (I am actually, I don't even know how I got my year). Yeah I feel really depressed lately. And sad. And weird. There is this boy in my major, I could never speak to him because he will find that I am weird. (I'm not weird weird, like I'm just really awkward, I hope).
We always said to me that I looked older than my age. And it's the same now. Like I don't know why I'm acting like I'm a mother of 3 children while I'm not even in my twenties. I regret not having many good memories of my teenage year, because I was depressed, and I had a really hard time going to school. I'm sad of this too. I'm really negative nowadays, sorry about that for those who are reading this...
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Didi XD
i feel you, but i think sometimes we focus too much on the things we don't have (or the things we regret) that we forgot about the things we can have now. It only takes a little bit of action to change our situation, like trying new things that in the past we were scared of doing. I used to avoid doing things that i was uncomfortable with, because i was sure that everything would go wrong; but then, i realized that it was better to try and fail that wonder what could have happened if i were braver. (sorry for the bad english)