guys, im a mess

im going through a lot of shit right now and im so out of it. my husband and i are separated, getting a divorce and ive been seeing his friend... yeah. it just happened but we were kissing and all that terrible stuff that adults get into. and i know its horrible to say but i actually really like him. i could use a drink. every day i wake up and want a shot. and i totally would too if i wasnt a mother and had responsibilities. i dont know, maybe thats just me but i feel like i need it. my fucking vape isnt hitting hard enough anymore.