Well I'm weird either way but that ain't the point. There are certain things about me I just can't quite explain unless we're looking through a neurodivergent lense of it.
So Killinya has always had their little quirks that some might just call , 'overdramatic'. Whenever someone tells them to go do something eventhough they just started gaming they are going to be seriously pissed but not because they didn't want to do whatever task they've been asked to do, but because now just wasn't the right time. They were comfy, enjoing the music and story just to be ripped out of it. If you told them to go in 5 minutes they'd still be upset but just not quite as much as before since they had time to mentally prepare.
Another thing Killinya sucks at is getting things started. For example, they've had a drawing idea of a character for like a week at least but school kept them from it. But even when they finally finish all of their school work, they still choose to day dream to vocaloid and imagine animations of their ocs instead of drawing, then proceeding to feel terrible for being unproduktive.
And the last point to mention, eventhough there is a lot more, is Killinya's obsessions. They can't be normal about the things that interest them , otherwise they don't consider themselves to be fans these 'obessions' can last from a moth to half a year. The amount of content doesn't really play a part there, a series could have barely 2 seasons but they'd still get obessed about every detail, consume all the fanfiction and rant so much to their friends about it to the point the friends wished they'd have Menier's disease.
But yeah, as of writing this I haven't really been diagnosed with anything, eventhough all my research points to me having ADHD, Autism or both.
Buuuuuuut I've managed to survive for so long so it can't be that serious lol :D
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koreapilled
I think you are ND im ND myself (adhd autism) and everything your struggling with i get that its sometimes hard to get checked out for it tho so it sucks so bad but when its a everyday thing that makes your life more diffcult deffinetley check it out adhd sucks hard and all NDs are serious so even if no one takes it seriously you should yourself cause your things matter :))
nanina
I totally understand u, even if I got therapy since I was a child doctors js can't say wth is wrong w me bc of my behavior being a bit anormal for a kid. I managed to survive that way, idc what ppl says abt me anymore, but things got worse and worse and sometimes I wanna be a normal person. Is a bit frustrating but I think I'm js weird and that's all.
_oxyoxymoron
I sometimes go through the same about things that u just mentioned, (when wanting to do somethin but then asked to do smth else just in time or problems with getting things started) and used to feel or think the same if Im actually neurodivergent orrrr Im just overthinking.
Best thing to do is going to a professional cus maybe we are just a lil weird... in the good way ofcc lolll