I am selfish, there's no way I'm not
everything I do is in some way for myself, I can't help it. even if I'm trying to help someone else, I feel like I'm just trying to make them feel better so I don't have to deal with it anymore, so I can go back to whatever I was doing before.
I don't know why I'm like this, I mean, is it even still kindness if you are doing it for yourself? I don't know.
I don't even know if it's just my head telling me this, or if everyone else somehow just doesn't see it, but I'm sure someone would have had to notice by now, right? it feels so obvious, so obvious that I am just a selfish, terrible, awful person.
I don't belong in a world with so many people better than me, it's just not right for someone as disgusting as I am to exist. I just know deep down I don't belong anywhere, I will always be an outsider no matter how much I try, something for people to look at and say "at least I'm not them"
What a pathetic existence I have, I don't think it could be worse at this point.
But it's probably just my head getting to me again, anyway I'm probably going to bed after I post this, so goodnight :)
Selfish
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third !! ( ⸝⸝´ ˘ `⸝⸝) ~♡
i dont see you as a selfish or disgusting person, and i feel like at some point we all can be a bit selfish
Ins4yn33m3!
Goodnight, sleep well. I hope you feel better in the morning. It’s human nature to be selfish, it’s not limited. Everyone has become or has at least done something selfish. But that doesn’t make you a bad person, it’s that you care enough with your own decisions.
The world has same people. Without people different, it’s boring. Being different isn’t wrong, it’s not a tragedy. You just look at things differently. Every perfection, everything. You see are fake. Some people post themselves happy, either to gain love and attention—which can be selfish, or some just post it for memories which still can be counted as one. Even in the smallest habits.
Mainly, only a few can tell selfishness. Even I have my own selfishness The glass may be tinted, but what hides underneath isn’t impossible to remove or take off, it’s just there.
You are not strange or odd for having a different perspective. its okay, and I hope you do realize that someday.