I hate food! Journal entry (4) 6.10.2026

June 10 2026 (Wednesday)

I think my body finally crashed last night. I kept falling asleep and then wake up suddenly with a racing heart. Anyway like the last two days I couldn’t go skateboarding because of this stupid weather. Good news is that I will be able to finally skate tomorrow ! After doing nothing but chatting and listening to music it was lunch time. I didn’t wanted to eat anything but my parents kept forcing me to. I ended up eating a little bit of cottage cheese and four small crackers (265 kcal). After eating I felt bad and wanted to burn the calories as quickly as possible so I went for a walk in the rain. I walked for about 1 hour and just walked around aimlessly. I then went to a store with my mom’s grocery list and bought some stuff. Back home I had to eat dinner again (way too early lol) and  I didn’t wanted to eat but my parents forced me to get something. So I went out again to get my dinner. It took me nearly an hour because I kept checking every single meal. I ended up getting some sushi that was 10.5 oz (285 grams) which means 550 calories. Now I was thinking a long time if I should get it because that’s a huge meal for me. I ended up getting it because I already moved enough so I must have burned my lunch by now. At home I then ate but couldn’t let myself eat all of it because I was panicking about it. At the end of the day I consumed 693 calories which is almost the average I consume daily. I absolutely hate to eat because I’m scared I will gain weight so I just end up starving myself and eat as little as possible. I don’t think anything more exciting will happen today so that’s it for my day 

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