(TW pet death)
i took my senior orange kitty Milo to the vet 4 days ago and got the unfortunate news that he has stage 4 kidney failure and the best course of action is to let him go </3. also unfortunately i will be going by myself as my mom has to work. this is genuinely the hardest thing ive ever had to do in my entire life. i never really thought about him getting put down, i had always assumed that one day i would wake up and find out he had passed away peacefully in his sleep. its devastating me that now i have to put him in a carrier, put him in the car (which he HATES), and take him to the vets office and watching him go. its killing me because even though i know hes sick and in pain all the time, he stills gets up and walks around, he comes and bugs me to feed him, he perks up when my mom gets near him and he purrs when we kiss him and pet him. i feel like im betraying him even though i know its for the best. ive been crying non stop for the past two days.
trying to combat the grief, here are some of my favourite things about Milo
- the tip of his tail is a little crooked. we dont know why, but its very cute when his tail is straight up
- he used to be very chunky, and while he isnt anymore its still a classic
- he has one of the cutest meows
- he has the deepest purrs. its very soothing
- hes our most social cat. he would cuddle up to anyone who sat in a certain spot on the couch. my friends loved him a lot too
- he convinced my married couple friends to adopt an orange boy of their own
- he had NO problem begging for food lol. if we were eating at the table he would be right there head butting the chair legs to get your attention. if you were eating on the couch he would meow and paw at you and look at you with the biggest eyes lol. kinda like puss in boots
- he somehow always smelled like cinnamon
- he used to love being held tight and cuddled at night. like a teddy bear. he would wake my mom up just so she would cuddle him
sorry to dump this out here on anyone who may happen to read this lol i feel bad saying anything to my irls because everyone knows him. hes my sweet boy and im going to miss him so much it hurts.
if anyone has some tips to deal with the grief (and maybe the crying lol), please feel free to send them my way. i feel like my world is exploding on itself
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machohartmadness
I'm so sorry for your loss, Milo is such a cute name for such an adorable cat, thank you for sharing about him here. My cat, Cadence, recently had to be put down it was also quite sudden so I understand the feeling. I understand the grief of losing a pet and it is really hard. And only last year our other cat, Biscuit, was put down too.
I try to think of all the good experiences our cats had in life, their favourite food, their favourite places to be pet, their favourite places to sit. Reminding myself that they had great lives and were loved so much has helped me.
My mum decided that it was time for us to get a new cat (her name is Lottie), and although I was apprehensive and scared (I didn't want Cadence & Biscuit to think we were forgetting them or moving on so quickly) it really has made all the difference.
I don't know if it's something you are able to do but getting another cat filled the quietness of the house in the absence of Cadence & Biscuit, Lottie helps us to remember them in a positive way as we reminisce on similar things they used to do. She's not a replacement but a new member of the family.
Another thing is photos, I've made sure to find my favourite photos of them and I'm getting around to printing them and putting them in an album which has been quite soothing. Maybe it would be helpful to you too.
It does get better over time, the pain lessens and I can think of all the positive memories easier without so much upset. But crying can be helpful at times too, to get the emotions out and not bottle it all up.
Again, I'm so sorry for your loss and I wish you well. Milo will be missed and remembered. 💕
thank you for your kind words, they mean a lot to me <3. and im sorry for your loss as well :(
now that you say that about remembering their favourite places to be pet, there was a spot behind Milo's ears where if i scratched it good enough, his back leg would start kicking and his eyes would roll back into his head LOL he was such a character
i do have 2 other cats (one of which is my baby who ive had since she was a kitten) already so the house isnt empty by any means lol but the other two just arent nearly as social so its just different. i will be giving them extra love though, if thats even possible
my mom and i are planning on making a little shrine for him since we're getting his ashes back, and we were thinking of getting one of those digital picture frames that slideshow through photos because i have like a million pictures and videos of him haha. they did make us feel better when we looked at them after losing him yesterday, 1. because theres some funny pics and vids of him LOL and 2. because we could see how quickly he had actually declined. its good to know hes not suffering anymore
it doesnt usually rain where i live but it did yesterday after he had passed and there was the biggest and brightest double rainbow ive ever seen in my life, so i think thats a good sign <3
thank you again for your kind words and again im sorry for your loss. i hope Lottie is helping you and your mum, she seems to be just what you guys needed <3
by night; ; Report
The digital picture frame sounds like a great idea! Hope you and your mom continue to feel better as time passes, and thank you for the kind words as well. <3
by machohartmadness; ; Report