dude

today feels like an alternate universe. my fav podcast ended forever (H3) because the guy who laughed loudly at cheaters ended up cheating on his wife. ethan klein haters are having a blast and i can't really blame them lol fuhk that guy.. thank god i was fan only for 5 years and not for more, didn't give the guy a single penny, bc if i were a fan for 12 years that was a big supporter, i'd literally be so disappointed. poor woman dude, poor kids. i hope he stays alone forever..
and plus- this is why relationships scare me so much. i have put all my trust in my childhood friends before, they ended up betraying me, and it left a scar. i can't imagine giving all my life, love and body to a person that will end up replacing me for another in like 20 years.
 
but i guess that's what u sign up for when u choose love. humans are unpredictable / complex and assholes. u never know how it's gonna end. if u give them ur everything, it doesn't mean they r gonna give something of theirs. liars are scary.

so if you want to have a good time with a person, you have to keep in the back of ur mind that it's not forever, and it can change in a day. just like anything else.

i just want to know what goes inside a cheater's mind? is it the adrenaline rush of knowing that you can ruin your relationship, break a person's heart, ruin your life? that you are actively ruining it? what the fuck is the psychology behind it and why is it so popular?