today i learnt smth new abt myself

i recently went rock climbing with my family and while my sister reached the top of the wall thingeys pretty quickly (super proud of her!), i ended up freezing up abt 7-8 feet up. i literally could not move and started shaking pretty violently and nearly passed out, but thankfully the instructor brought me down safely. now, i would say this as it is: im not scared of heights specifically, but i think im scared of the loss of control i have over my body. or most likely, the fear of falling. i ended up having ice cream and my family made sure i was fine, but it just felt somewhat embarrassing bc people saw it and i just wanted to hide LOL, but tbf i have been diagnosed with horrible anxiety so it makes sense that i froze up. guess i'll always be learning new things abt myself :p

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val_screamz

1 week ago (edited) Report

I used to go to scouts and I used to be rlly good with heights and rock climbing, but when we did it after COVID I was terrified, not sure why tbh. maybe it's a deeper thing since i did have a more meh mental state post-COVID compared to pre-COVID.. xd

ooof im sorry :(( although maybe it could be the fact you grew more aware of your anxiety post-COVID? i wasn't a very avid climber myself even pre-COVID but i feel like i grew more anxious after it, so that could be the case for you?

by DoodleNoodles; 1 week ago (edited); Report

I recon it is an anxiety thing. unfortunately I've rlly struggled with socialization after COVID especially since I live somwhere really lonely, and picked up a bit of a depressive state - which has spiraled into social anxiety, and then anxiety, and probably then OCD. plus a lot of rlly difficult things happened since 2020 and I'm just a different person to what I was back then. so yeah it's definitely anxiety.

by val_screamz; 1 week ago (edited); Report

dang im so sorry :( you didn't deserve that

by DoodleNoodles; 6 days ago (edited); Report

DonSanos

1 week ago (edited) Report

Interesting story!!

yeah! it was kinda weird but good dairy queen ice cream i had soooo maybe it was worth it hahah