I'm so FUCKING scared

So we have to go back to school on Thursday after we left for a holiday in New Zealand, right? 

We're so scared. Not only will we have THOUSANDS of missing assignments, we have to chance seeing our abuser in the wild and we're deathly afraid of him. Plus we know a confrontation or conflict is coming and he's trying to reach us but also not, it's really scary. 

We're so scared of him snapping on us if he sees us, or shying away and playing the victim. Or if that doesn't happen, Rhe'a will most likely front and relapse/cry in the bathroom, which we do NOT want. 

It's just so hard seeing him, he seems so happy in life and we need to snuff it OUT. We can't have him do better than us, why does he get a life he took from us? We're so angry and so mad but then we get reminded of how he said the same and posted the same as us and we know that we are no better than him. We shouldn't even be posting this, it's hypocrisy. 

But a person needs their outlet, right?

I know we shouldn't be airing this out, just comment the same thing and we'll delete this out of shame most likely. 

If our ex is reading this, fuck of.