Feelings?? Idk

Idk why but I genuinely feel so empty. It may be weird but like..I dont rlly feel things most of the time. Idk maybe I do. I'm tired and struggling. But I feel like a void and that I'm gonna suck up every emotion there is and keep it in there forever. "Yeah you wanna feel happy?" No I don't cuz there's nothing to be happy for anyways. All my friends hate me and barely want to talk to me and I sit alone every day and can't go out with friends because my parents dont let me go.I feel like that mom type person who always feels happy for others but not herself.  Srry for ranting but this is the only place to get it off my chest