I'm simply hating all of this. I'm afraid to grow up because in a year and a half my high school years end, my adolescence ends, and what fun things did I do to remember it? Nothing... absolutely nothing. And all I wanted was to remember a day I went to the beach with my friends, or a day my friends and I went out aimlessly, but... how can I when I don't have friends? The friends I have are only online, and sometimes I don't even know if I can consider them friends. The ones I had in person don't want to look at me. I feel like I haven't enjoyed my life, but anyway, I couldn't have enjoyed it anyway. I think it's fine this way. Maybe rotting in my room pretending to like it and sleeping in class pretending to be sleepy is the best thing for me, the closest I can get to happiness.
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BuggedOut⋆˚꩜｡
It is unfortunate that this is so common across the globe for teens. There is rarely any spaces for teens in public for them to still act like the children we are, for us to socialize safely. When we act our age we're to immature and to childish, when we are still children we are not mature that's called being a teen we are supposed to be connecting with peers but where are we suppose to we don't have space to do that. And we don't "have the authority" to make these spaces ourselves. We are shamed until we conform to being a working class adult early and have no aspirations or dreams to fight back.
You are a good person, you're just dealing with the cards handed to you. All we have is the internet sometimes.
PS- sorry for the thesis I'm very passionate about this, if you need a peer across the sea dm me
I'm tired of burdening others with my problems, so I post these blogs for anyone who wants to relate, but thank you so much, you were amazing.
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Astroflash
Same here. That’s why I’m probably checking out by 19-20
furby
I don't have the best most comforting words, but I graduated recently and I didn't have any friends or company. The best thing I do is I remember I am a person and I am still alive, and all I can do is be the best I can despite this. I can maybe go out for myself and enjoy things even if it's alone.. I'm not really good at reassurance but I hope you feel a lot better and things get a lot better for you
Thank you Furby, I really appreciate all your support, even if it doesn't make a difference, I will always remember your kindness (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)
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