envy

ive been hanging with my friend and his older brother a lot lately.

they come over and talk to my mom. they talk about their homelife and how its rather unfortunate. my mom has taken it upon herself to be a motherly figure to them. now they go around talking about how great my mom is.

maybe im selfish, but i wish i got that version of her. why is she only a good mother to anyone but her children? 

im so jealous. i hate it. i dont mean to sound so rude, but i wish they saw how she treated me and my siblings. its suffocating. i wish they saw what i saw.

anyway in homeroom today some kid was meowing at like 8:00 in the mornimg