episode rambling

tw for paranoid episode ://

friday i had some sort of paranoid episode in class, its the first one ive had this year and i didnt rly handle it well so i had homework i had to do...so that kinda sucked(( i kinda started thinking that everyone and everythin around me wasnt real and i had to like escape..i knew it was an episode tho so i js kinda camped in the bathroom until the bell rang. ive gotta find a way to get them under control before i get medicated :// might b hard tho cuz my mom doesnt belive that i have a schizoaffective disorder even tho her mom had one....plus bpd shit....i just want meds so i can feel kinda normal at the least, + get accommodations 4 school. life has just been kinda shitty lately, but i dunno, i guess itll work out sometime