Everything fuckingnsucks

I graduated last month and feel so bored. All I do is work and I’m going to college soon. There’s nothing to do except pay taxes. The most I’m doing is making my YouTube channel but I need money for my setup and idk if I should post vlogs? Video diaries? Gaming? Maybe random stuff or all? I still have to get better at editing cause I’m doing stuff with capcut rn and I wanna try davinci resolve but I like 2000s editing like windows movie maker but i gotta find out if I can do that kinda vibe on davinci. I still gotta make an intro and figure out what I wanna do. I wanna post more videos on here too but I wanna do the video diary stuff on here kinda but I don’t have a desk or pc that I wanna do it on and it fucking sucks cause I have to wait to get paid and even then a pc is still fucking expensive so all I can get is a desk and chair.

The most I got is some old laptop that can kinda run stuff so I’ll deal with it for now but I just can’t do videos on my phone. I need money for literally anything cause I wanna redo my room and get new posters and shit and get locs cause I’ve been waiting since I was 13.