fake friends?????

so recently, i lost a really close friend. someone i’ve known for years and who i considered a best friend. they’d been getting distant from me for a good while, and getting way closer with other people. i didn’t mind that they were making other friends, cause that just happens, but it really seemed like they were avoiding me or something on purpose. i asked them if i had done something wrong, and that even if they chose not to be friends with me anymore, i just wanted to know. they said that i hadn’t done anything wrong, and that it seemed like i had been upset about a lot of different things recently. they said that they hoped it didn’t create a rough patch between us, and that we were still best friends. about a week later, they texted me to talk to me about a breakup that i’d gone through a few days earlier, and we started talking regularly. it really felt like we were best friends again. everything was fine for the next month or so until school ended. we dont usually talk much during the summer since we both get pretty busy, so i didnt think anything of it when we gradually lost touch. the problem started when they went on vacation. i texted them asking how it was going, and they never responded to me. we havent talked since then, and theyve blocked me on everything. 

the fact that they may not want to be friends with me isnt why im so hurt, but the fact that we’ve been best friends for years and they just cut me off without telling me what the problem was is what did it for me. especially because i ASKED what happened, and they said that i hadn’t done anything. i would try to reach out over text to ask whats wrong, but if our friendship meant so little to them that they’re willing to cut me off without telling me why, then maybe its not a friendship worth saving. there was a lack of respect in that friendship that i didn’t really realize while it was happening, but looking back on everything, its probably for the better. this past school year i’ve made a ton of great friends who have made me realize what friendship is supposed to feel like, and i think that it’s going to be easier now that i dont have to worry about whether my friends actually like me or not.

i apologize for the kind of sappy rant, i just figured i’d get this off my shoulders.

all this to say, make sure you have friends who respect you and are actually willing to talk about problems. those are the ones who actually last, i promise you. take care <3