fanfic writing

Im trying to write a fanfic for the 1st time.. n omg i already had a lot of respect and admiration for fanfic writers but omg i think i respect fanfic writers n writers in gen a million times more bc omg idk if its jst me but writing is so hard 😭 

i have the concept but i have no idea how to start the “scene” (its a lil oneshot/ drabble) n i honestly dont feel confident in my sentences, like idk if my grammar n spelling is good n if it will make sense when read, im also worried about my vocab being too simple/boring bc ik other writers try to use bigger words but i jst dont know if its needed for a simple story n/or where to even put them in sentences

ik i should prob have a friend read over it but i feel way too embarrassed at the idea of my friend reading smth i wrote n it being horrible bc they prob wont tell me directly that its bad n i would be thinking in the back my head that my friend is lying to me n feel bad about it 

idk maybe im too insecure n too much of a perfectionist to be writing but my 1st fic is jst supposed to be a start to get to me to begin practicing writing so im allowed to not be perfect n i want to force myself to get out of my comfort zone

anyways if any1 who is a fanfic writer is willing to give some advice, i am very open to advice n tips 

(also the way i write a story n write my blogs r very diff bc my blogs r jst rambles /wo any concerns about sounding good n my stories, i care a lot more about sounding good when read n being grammatically correct)

roz out!!