fearful emotions (poem)

every time you open your mouth, it scares me 

i must navigate emotions, secret meanings, faces 

my mind races 

i am at a loss for words, so i follow the script 

"its okay", "i understand", "im here for you"

it's not good enough 

not to you, not to me 

you deserve better than anything i am or ever will be 

how does one pick a mind apart when there's nothing to pick at? 

no one will ever be able to fully comprehend the pure fear and confusion that is in my heart 

not you, not them, not me

you scare me 

your words, your expressions, your emotions 

you are my world, yet when you open your mouth, it all comes crashing down 

my heart beats faster 

i start to cry 

i want you to feel comfortable

i want you to feel happy 

i want you to feel. i want you to feel anything good

yet you dont and i am powerless to stop it 

 it angers me 

i want to erase all the bad in your life 

i fear you cannot handle it much longer

i fear losing you 

this one is more of a ramble but its a poem nonetheless. 

i love poems. there aren't many rules to follow while writing em