feeling like having a future

I spent years living in the feeling that I had no future. I saw nothing when I thought about my future. Always would get very uncomfortable when others asked me "What do you want to do with your future?".  I never knew what to answer so I usually just said that "I didn't knew that yet".

Lately I'm starting to feel like I might actually have a future. This feels like a weird new feeling after all these years. 
Like the other day we were talking with my boyfriend about moving together slowly. And I actually could imagine us living together. I could see myself building our little routines. Going home to each other after a day of work.
This all feels new and foreign to me and I like the idea.

Vivian