First Blog/Journal entry on here

Ive been trying to be more open to everything. I have a problem being stuck in my own bubble and im currently seeking help with a therapist and on new meds from my psychologist (Adderal) I honestly dont feel much of a difference, just more commitment to "change." Im a very reserved person and i was a bit late on my first relationship that i totally ruined by insecurities. It was my fauly she was the best first experience i can ask for. I just hate being stuck on things ive said to her that made her want to leave all because i was insecure. Im not going much further into it but im changing or at least i hope i am. Physically ive changed so much but now im just mentally trying to change. I want to have a unrecoginzable personality. I guess the medication is working if my parents are saying they see me "better" and im concentrating more on self improvement eventho it might be a placebo effect.