first day of highschool...

it went ... okay?.. 

the whole first half of the day, i was crying and not talking or looking at anyone. then i started to ease up halfway through the day. i cant wait till my classmates get comfortable so i dont feel like a cornered animal in an unfamiliar place anymore,,

(I ALSO CRIED ALL PRESENTATION YESTERDAY. IT WAS LITERALLY A PRESENTATION AND I CRIED THE WHOLE TIME JUST BEING IN THE HIGHSCHOOL.)

it also doesnt help that i dont have my ex best friend that i used to at least be comfortable and be myself around,, (best friend since 5th grade)

one of my only other friends (that i dont talk to much and has some pretty bad takes) is at a different highschool now, a friend that ive recently reconnected with and is my best friend now also goes somewhere else (i havent seen her since 5th grade), and my other friend is a grade above me, which isnt that bad..

but also i have nobody im that close or familiar with near me :-(

i think im befriending someone in my classes that ive known since they moved here a while ago, and also i befriended a junior. she was really nice :-)

im very messed up about everything all at once though, especially cause i have a new rbt now (and cant see my older brother who works in the middle school anymore)