flashback + rant

clearing out my docs rn and i found my old layout from spacehey! this was from 2024 and my aesthetic/interests were crazy different tbh O_O i'm not as edgy as i used to be, which is kinda crazy to think about bc i thought horror would be my major personality trait for the rest of my life, LOL. but i deleted my acc after a few months bc 1. a lot of my active mutuals LEFT and 2. i just didn't care for posting anymore, snorre. also i here americans need an invitation to join now?? no clue what the reason is for that but that's pretty weird
this ss isn't from the actual site btw, i just had the code saved on a doc and previewed it on that one site editer t.t anyway, it's still cute to look back on and it def was what got me into html and the other "nostalgia" sites! i just wish there was a site that was based on the old deviant art layout cuz now that space is just filled with ai slop, ughh. i just know i would've been soo addicted to that place 

anyway, small rant time bc i've been irritated asf for weeks now and i'm totally complaining about this anywhere i can, LMAO. so my dad's being a huge prick and the reasoning is so bizarre, that it's not even making me feel that bad bc ik he's being more dramatic than i should.. in simple words: he got rid of my childhood cats without telling me, didn't come over to tell me happy bday and after i got visibly sad and quiet over all that, he BLOCKEDD my shit from the wifi, brah. also keep in mind, i live with my grandparents and i just visit him every other week so he's just being overly petty </3 and he's always been like. emotionally immature and is the type to just quietly antagonize you if you don't immediately forgive him and stop talking about a problem, but all of this is mega drastic compared to his usual irritating behavior. anyway, i'm not TOO bothered over the bday or wifi thing bc i don't do anything special for my bday in general + it's easy to change a pc's mac address which is what wifi router's block, LOL. but i srsly miss my cat's bc i actually did live half-time with my dad for most of my life and having them around got me through a lot of hard times when i was a lil kid t.t but there's nothing i can do about it and i just hope they're somewhere nice! even tho this situation sucks badd, it finally made realize just how careless my dad is which was smt that i struggled to accept until recently. honestly, i feel a wave of like. mental relief ig and i'm looking forward to focusing on myself, my hobbies and the ppl who actually treat me right moving forward :D

also, i tried nutella toast again after literal years and OMGG it's actually soo yum