Freeing your mind

I had a really good convo just now with my best friend, and this topic has been on my mind a lot lately. 

It kinda hit me that I had been pushing my emotions away, even my happy bubbly one. It was happening with me realizing it honestly? I dont know how to explain it tbh. But I kinda realized this was happening and has been going on. It could be because I've never viewed myself as a bubbly person and kinda hated being too emotional?? 

I've changed my mind and let it all go. 

Honestly I feel so much better, because I think I've felt like this oh maybe for a couple years now?? I don't even know. I guess its just feeling of not caring but caring at the same time? Its just how I also view things I don't like about myself. Like yes okay they exist, but I can't really do anything about them, and they're weighting me down and my mind. I would rather live and be happy then worry about them. Yes I may not still like them, but ive chose to ignore it. So kinda in that sense? Idk if that makes sense. I've been doing a lot of more praying and truly slowing down, thats probably helping too. Anyway I don't know if this makes sense. But this is your sign to let yourself breathe mentally and let go of things and live life to the fullest! :D Even though yes itd hard with things and I get theres exceptions. But hopefully it makes sense. And now I genuinely feel alive, its a weird feeling and im not sure how to explain it. Maybe ig just appreciating everything to its fullest? 

In result. I love having emotions, feeling things so deeply and being human. Yes theres bad ones, and I dont like being sad. But being sad just makes me appreciate being happy and the good times more.  Crying, laughing, giggling makes us human. I think sometimes the world is trying to take that away from us. Especially with AI on the rise. 

anyway bye bloggggg i hope everyone is doing well and maybe this sparked some thoughts 

God bless! 

x3 baaii!