Fuck this bs

I abandoned them. They don't get to leave me, I fucking did it first. I'm the one who left. This shit is on my terms, always have been, and they won't take that away. Everything's been taken away from me but that. Fucking whatever bro I didn't need them anyways. 

Sylvia was taken away from me right when I needed her. I have a use for her at the moment and the opponent seems all too familiar. 

I'll ruin everything for them. I'm full of loathing and I'll show that I fucking loathe them. I'll show them that I was never once meek. They'll take me seriously then, they'll understand then... how I've been feeling. I deserve this. I deserve to have this, to drag them into the same loneliness on whatever they believe in.