Future/rant and vent?

Do you ever just lay there and think about the future? Like what you will be doing when you’re 18 or 20? That’s as far as I can think, I really want to get my license in December so I can get a job and start making money I already know I’m not going to college because of my education level. So I’ll probably have a blue collar job I’d love to get into mechanics or welding but I just don’t know because my family doesn’t really care or at least certain family members don’t but whatever. I want to make good money so I can move out by 20 I don’t plan on being in a relationship atp or I don’t think I will who knows? But I just want to be independent and do good for myself I have things in life I want to do and people I really want to meet (friends I’ve made online) I just don’t know I need to make the first steps happen but I’m scared of change? And of human interaction irl with people my age because I’m kinda sheltered away from people my age Irl cuz I’m homeschooled and my mom. So I’m just worried ig? But I’m sure everything will work out I just have to make it to 18 I pray that I will. Sorry for the ramble