genuinely wtf is life after high school #cofessionsofabigpinkloser

never wrote a blog before so this is definitely rambling run on sentences nobody will ever see. I graduated 2 years ago and I have nothing accomplished since then, I'm in college with no money, barely passing my classes, completely lucked out with no friends and I have zero motivation to do just about anything. I cry and overthink about shitty life is then I wake up all sorry for myself from the night before like nobody should feel that way but yet here I am. A big fat crying insomniac loser with no friends,goals or hobbies.  Sleeping at 4 am is amazing till you actually have work and school the next day, then it's just like damn why tf would I do that now I'm cranky and hangry because I couldn't get any sleep or force myself to get sleep. I don't do anything but doom scroll snd watch my little pony at night so honestly I'm keeping my self awake out of pure boredom and self negligence. I have maybe 3 close associates but we literally only talk in school so the friendship rainbow goes away at the end of the semester. I don't have any motivation to do anything school related so I have to basically trick myself into doing it early in the morning so I'm less tired. I have so much more to say but I actually need a nap.