Getting my hair cult later this week

I'm supposed to be sleeping right now but I can't seem to rest, so I'm writing this quick blog.

On friday directly after school I've got an appointment to get my haircut, finally! For context, my hair is so long it nearly reaches my butt, its a pain to take care off and honestly i struggle a lot with it...

Its so hard to brush and it gets in the way of everything, takes SO long to wash and the process of getting it dry..? Its hell especially in now in winter because I let my hair air dry and then I get really cold whenever I get out of the bathtub. Not fun.

I'm gonna chop most of it off, like shoulder or chin length which..honestly? I'm terrified. I've always had long hair! But my long hair has always bothered me, and not to mention as a trans teen...short hair would make me feel a lot better about myself aswell in terms of gender expression. I'm scared it'll look bad tho or the kids ar school will make fun of me...

What do you guys think about this? Maybe I'm overthinking it a little bit. After all, its just hair, and if it looks bad I COULD grow it out again but.. should I really grow it out for the sake of looking good if I know that my long hair will bother me again???